my mouth hurts, im sad, and i havent gotten any work done
i am sad
my oma died yesterday :( i know its selfish but i wish i would have had the chance to see her one last time.. especially with my flight booked for in a month from the yesterday. :( my dad didn’t even have enough time to make it there before it happened.
i also just spent last week in regina with my sick grandpa. i was cleaning, cooking, etc all week. he isn’t well at all either, but his disease is so slow.. it slowly takes control over his body and eventually he’ll choke to death, unless he dies from a cold or an infection before that.
today is hard.
I just can’t crack your code
No. 5, 1948 (1950), Jackson Pollock / Holy Grail, Jay-Z ft. Justin Timberlake
did you know that when I smoke to much weed, take too much xanax, or too much codeine (i have it cause i got my wisdom teeth out) i itch a lot. drugs make me sooo itchy.
my oma might not make it through the weekend :(
you know what kinda sucks? the only person that i really have, that’s always there for me, is an ocean away.
but then i think to myself, when my life is falling apart, or I’m just sad, or i’ve just had surgery, or when everyone in my family is getting sick, i have someone. I have someone who will tell me they love me and make me smile even if its five in the morning their time. i think thats pretty lucky.
my oma might not be alive by the time i get to europe next month, but i know i’ll have someone there who will make it a little easier.
k so im talking to this neat guy and since im such a good creep i found his ma thesis online. should i read it or not? i feel like if i do i’ll judge hardcore.. cause thats just how i do. i’m so weird